too much to take in...

God has guided me so far. So i have no regrets. And if there's a lot going on right now... it's only because God know that I can turn to Him and He will help me and with His help I will make it to the other side,,, where everything is ok... where I will be smiling again. This is just so much to take in but at least I have a path in front of me and I know where to step now... I have peace and I guess that's what's important right now. I don't feel my sight blocked by tears anymore. God is my strength. period.

Epic Birthdays!!!

Today I think is one of them... it hasn´t really started yet.. I don´t have huge plans to go out of town or getting together with a lot of friends...but I can feel it will be EPIC!! Not because I deserve it, on the contrary! I feel is going to be epic because I get to recognize all the blessings that I have and don´t deserve! God has been in control and I can see it every year of my life! I don´t have that many digital pictures of past birthdays but the memories are so treasured that sometimes they have more color than the RGB or CMYK a picture can have. My cake has to be in the oven in a few minutes so I will be brief...

I remember sharing a party with my brother... we invited a lot of friends and kids sang to us "Happy Birthday" and we were standing on a chair in front of the cake (for the perfect picture, I guess. And I don´t even have it) When the song ended they threw confetti at us as a sign of cheer... and the cake got it all! so... we all ate a delicious cake with no frosting!! :P I only feel sorry for the lady who made the cake and took a long time to make those frosting clowns. And I also remember that we all learn, the hard way, that we should NOT be standing close to a kid when he´s hitting the piñata... it´s just not safe... we all remember the injured person worked with my dad (it was not too bad)... but I never knew if someone sent her flowers or something. I guess it´s too late to ask now.. Another EPIC birthday? I know! I know!

It was at Petter Piper Pizza (Comercial!) I went with my parents and my brothers only and my selfishness came to light when my dad asked me if I wanted us 3 to have the same amount of money to spend or if I wanted more for me than them. I guess everyone can guess what I chose (not too proud) anyway. I remember having a blast!! we ate pizza, we ran all over the place and grown ups could not tell us otherwise, with almost unlimitted games! it was heaven! Fashion disaster? I guess... but I was young so I didn´t care! I only hated my haircut (I love you mom)!

Needless to say... I was SO tired after running around all day (or afternoon, I don´t remember) that my dad had to carry me to the car (my dad could still carry me!!) and of course I cannot forget to mention the REBOSO (mexican scarf) since I was (and only sometimes still are) so proud of being born on a very patrioric month.. :) NEXT!! Oh yeah! When I turned 10! I celebrated it at my dad´s workplace...

I just want to add a not here... I HATE TWETTY! (I know better now). End of this note. This birthday was epic because it was just fun! we had games and prices and a lot of food. My aunt made an awesome cake. Super delicious like always. But I will never forget one of the gifts... it was from a family that we call family. the gift was in an envelope... a small one... it was bulky and it actually seem like just a lot of paper, but not just any kind of paper... it felt like the kind of paper that you exchange in stores for things. It was a big pile too... so when I saw the dollar bill on top (and bottom) of this pile (is that the right word?) held together by a rubber band my eyes couldn´t have been bigger. My friends saw my face and only the members of this family started laughing and taking pictures of me (if not physical, just mental pictures, all the same) My natural reaction was to use my thumb to give myself some air with all the money that I got (forget the other presents, and the games, and the prices) And my big surprise was looking at all the newspaper cut in between the dollar bills reducing my excitement to embarrassment (lesson learned at 10, money only buys you happiness for a moment and is NEVER enough) The upside? it was 20 dollars total... not too bad for a 10 year old... EPIC!! I will never forget a birthday on High School!

I´ll keep looking for pictures of that day... but my friends made me a huge banner and put it on top of the water tank on the campus! I also remember Daniel and Marcel (how to forget those two?) playing on top of it after installing it! and taking it down so I could keep! :) we hang out as always...and we had fun! I think they got me wet? I don´t remember but the banner was epic and never forgotten.. and the first one of many more that copied the awesome idea... When I turned 15 I didn´t want a quinceañera... that´s just not my style... instead... I got a photo shoot and a puppy on my birthday and a trip to Puerto Rico... I just couldn´t for for more... I would desrcibe it but THAT would take me FOREVER!

In COLLEGE?? Oh yeah! I had pretty epic birthdays! but the one I remember the most is the one I spent with my SIRENAS! that morning started with the guy I liked and my closest friends serenating me (yei!!) cake at the office... and an afternoon with my girls! and we had a blast!!!!

All we needed was pastries, chips, soda... and food? did we have food? I don´t remember but it was AWESOME! love them! miss them! Now... Jumping a few years (coff.. cofff...) when I first got to Maryland, it was so great to be "adopted" by this awesome family!

(blury picture!) They made me feel like at home! and I felt so lucky to have a younger brother and sister! :) I remember that I was introduced to The Cheesecake Factory.. so ... yeah.. I don´t have to explain why that year was Epic too! :) 2 years later.... I got to share it with 2 really close friends! and it not only meant that I was happy for my birtday but it was the start of an EPIC year!

I enjoyed hat day with my friends, my second family and with my now boyfriend... we had pizza (i see a pattern here) awesome rainbow cake..

(made by me, I would sell them but VERY expensive!!) it was just fun and unforgettable! now ... this year´s celebration... started with roses... :) and now I have to leave if I want to enjoy the rest... I feel like it´s going to be my next birthday after writing so much! :) I need to put my cake in the oven.. like NOW! ANYWAY... I think I made my point... I´m blessed! I´m happy! I´m thankful! and I love sharing this day with my loved ones (it doesn´t matter if they are far away) I think about them all!! P.S. i´m 26...AND I LOVE IT!!!